NO! I'll say it again...NO!! Or at least that is my opinion. As a seasoned yo-yo dieter, I've got experience on my side. Lose 5, gain 10...Lose 80, gain 100! This is going to be a life long journey for me, there for no end (or at least until I take my last breath). I won't say battle, as I try to look on the positive side. It's my journey, it's my life, one bite at a time. I didn't gain over night...and I won't lose it over night either. Although, that would be awesome!!
So as I make my lifestyle changes, and SLOWLY lose this weight and get healthy, I started to think about how we view ourselves, and sometimes in doing so sabbotage our efforts.
This morning, I was talking with a friend who recently had lap band. She has lost 35 pounds in 2 months. I have lost 33 pounds, in 5 months. Although our journey is different in our techniques, we have a very common issue...we both wish it was more. We both wish we were already across the finish line. Why can't we see how far we've come? Why can't we be happy with that? Or for me, the role model I'm becoming for my children, so maybe they won't have the same struggles?
I can only say for myself why. And the answer is, I don't know why! I could say it's society, super models, and apple pie...but nope, it's me. I look in the mirror at the jiggle and say, how can I feel sexy with this? I put on a size 16 and think, why can't I fit into the 14? OH...the self deprevation!
I guess in the end, like this never ending journey, I just need to learn to embrace it all. I have found that some of my habits for a healthy lifestyle have stuck now, second nature. There are also those that still elude me. So for now I will embrass my want it done attitude, and keep working on it. I'll get there, and someday, I'll be proud. I've just got to wire my brain around the whole thing. It takes time!
Now...If I could just love exercising?? :)
What about you? How do you feel about your journey?
I wish I could love exercising too. I'll bet if I did the weight would come off faster instead of dribbling off. My journey is similar to yours. Up and down up and down the yo-yo. I find it frustrating sometimes where I eat a lot better than I ever did and yet the weight still comes off sooo slowly but have one weekend of eating poorly and I gain two pounds!!
ReplyDeleteKim so true!! If I exercised this whole time...image where I could be!! :) But, one day at a time. I can also relate to the one weekend of eating poorly then gaining. Frustrating!! Love reading your blog by the way!
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